I was supposed to be asleep two hours ago.

my toes curled around the bar of your futon
because it’s colder than the rest
and I need cool temperatures to sleep like my mother
was a polar bear and I can’t stand
the crochet blankets she used to heap on top of me
when I was tired or sick and needed
saltine crackers and soda water
as if being sick means being poor
but I am both, you remind me, you sad and crazy fool

blue like the inner soles of your running shoes
always damp inside and you wonder why I’m always looking
for coolness. where I used to live
it was rainy and cool always
and no one used umbrellas or wore appropriate footwear
and I slept so much easier
which makes it much different from here
because I don’t have enough money for anything other than
saltine crackers and sleeping on your couch

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